1 post tagged “nostalgia”

Wow, it's been a long time since I last wrote in this thing, but not much has changed in my life, or in the world for that matter. I'm still working retail while trying to find something else, but eh such is life. We're never satisfied, as Bob Dylan put it, "with your position and your place," so we constantly search for something else. It's exactly why immigrants look back at their home country with an air of nostalgia, even if they escaped for financial opportunity, and why open-minded Americans are always longing to find another country, and often just lump all countries together and call it "Europe." I don't even know what country I'd escape to. Maybe Canada, even though that's cliche. Who knows though. Political climates can change with the breeze of revolution, and no country can escape that fate.

I've been going back to my writing these days, and I juggle around so many different ideas of stories I want to write that I usually end up writing/researching one idea, abandoning it, and then finding out a different one a few days later. It's an annoying cycle, but it makes me think that I need to get all these ideas out for stories because I don't want to forget one in case it's the one. Currently I'm working on this theme that's loosely based on my own life with my other guy friends and roommates, but it could be complete shit. And if it is complete shit, believe me I'll be the first to burn the book, along with crowds of others.

Lately I've been realizing how difficult it is for people say how they love each other. It honestly isn't that hard, yet I've only ever heard people talk of love if with their better (or in some cases worse) half. You also hear it in families, but I mean when do people seriously say that they love their friends? I'm not saying you have to go up to every person you know and tell them that you love them, but it's just absolute bullshit that people can be afraid to show any sort of emotion to each other. Let your guard down and be human - and then the real relationship can begin. And besides, I love everyone regardless, and like Mando Diao sings, "You Can't Steal My Love."

These days I'm basing my role models on three men: John Lennon, Leonardo Da Vinci, and Albus Dumbledore. Yeah, one of them's fictional, but he wouldn't be the first character from a book that people have based their lives on. Just think about it...yep, now you see that that was a religious joke. I'm not anti-religion, I just think that people have to have an open-mind about things and admit their own ignorance (in the sense that we really don't know) on whether or not there is anything more than us. I've already exhausted enough about this in other blogs, so I'm not expelling more energy to it unless it becomes an issue. And even then, I'll stand by that I think I'm right. But I'll admit my ignorance on the subject.

Yeah. This is it. This is life, the one you get, so have a ball. It's a rollercoaster when we want it to be and it's a cake-walk when we're honest to ourselves and don't let other people's visions of us distort who we are. I'll be who I want to be, and that's that. If you have a problem with it, then that's your issue - I am who I am. It's how the Spirit in the Sky (thanks Norman Greenbaum) made me.

That's it for me. I could go on for hours on my purging of ideas, but it's tiring and I'm off tomorrow, which means I have much better things to do with my time. Oh, and if you do read this, feel free and subscribe to the blog. It's nice to know sometimes that people read it, even though these ramblings are hugely personal.

Hope for the future? Maybe not. But tomorrow's a new day and who knows what it will bring.

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